As the ego dies, the inner peace begins to calm the nervous system. Egoic inner chaos distorted and contorted the body over the years. In calmness, the nervous system began to heal. The energy/ thought/ body left behind the thoughts. The body is energized again!
The mind chaos of always looking for the next thing to get began to silence. Quiet is calm. This new ideal mind state begins to open and be experienced for short periods of time.
As my being felt the superiority of the calm and peaceful focus, spiritual practice began. It's a practice since it's the long term effort to look at the old chaotic mind and allow its thousands of judgements to subside. For me they boiled to the surface of my awareness like molten hatreds.
It has been called the process of ego death, too. I don't feel it important to label and categorize these things, so it doesn't matter what you call the process. A release of the importance of words is part of the process of the mind becoming calm too, in "my" experience!
The inner screams, yells, criticisms, hatreds, and on and on each make up the old cacophony. They are rats squealing behind you way down the tunnel, far off. It seemed there were endless layers that made up "my" old ego as I began reading spiritual philosophies about this process.
When it wasn't hating, it was judging. When it wasn't judging others, it was judging itself. As the process went on, this ego lost its loudness. It became more quiet and cunning in its falseness and self torture.
It's vital to keep looking at it and never believe, "my ego is vanquished". These are more tricks. As a self arises with a point of view, it is subtle ego grasping to its false existence within you.
As the process continues, the idea of "consciousness expansion" seems to be that your individual ego consciousness disintegrates and the small pieces fade away.
When the false ideas of being a self fade, you merge with higher layers of consciousness. Or, you melt in to them. Words and definitions fade into murkiness.
I can feel the body's nervous system repairing and calming. Mind, body, and energy begin to merge and harmonize in wholeness and peacefulness.
We shoot ourselves in the foot when we say that we operate (or exist as) within a "nervous system".
It has been a long process for this body, about 10 years. A new awakening calm is a calm always herenow. The nervous chaos was never here, never now, always regretful of past and planning out more chaos in the future. The ego = drama in time.
Awakening can be a torturous process. A Zen saying (I think) is to "die before we die". The peacefulness within is from a dead past ego self, a death in the body. How nice it is!
Deeply held and suppressed experiences had to invariably come to the surface of consciousness. Over time, the individual consciousness was seen as the false source of this unhappiness and tortured thoughts.
This brain calming is the central process of awakening in the nervous system. It's vital to know that you are not alone in this. It is happening globally. Hell melts into the past. Be herenow.
The mind chaos of always looking for the next thing to get began to silence. Quiet is calm. This new ideal mind state begins to open and be experienced for short periods of time.
As my being felt the superiority of the calm and peaceful focus, spiritual practice began. It's a practice since it's the long term effort to look at the old chaotic mind and allow its thousands of judgements to subside. For me they boiled to the surface of my awareness like molten hatreds.
It has been called the process of ego death, too. I don't feel it important to label and categorize these things, so it doesn't matter what you call the process. A release of the importance of words is part of the process of the mind becoming calm too, in "my" experience!
The inner screams, yells, criticisms, hatreds, and on and on each make up the old cacophony. They are rats squealing behind you way down the tunnel, far off. It seemed there were endless layers that made up "my" old ego as I began reading spiritual philosophies about this process.
When it wasn't hating, it was judging. When it wasn't judging others, it was judging itself. As the process went on, this ego lost its loudness. It became more quiet and cunning in its falseness and self torture.
It's vital to keep looking at it and never believe, "my ego is vanquished". These are more tricks. As a self arises with a point of view, it is subtle ego grasping to its false existence within you.
As the process continues, the idea of "consciousness expansion" seems to be that your individual ego consciousness disintegrates and the small pieces fade away.
When the false ideas of being a self fade, you merge with higher layers of consciousness. Or, you melt in to them. Words and definitions fade into murkiness.
I can feel the body's nervous system repairing and calming. Mind, body, and energy begin to merge and harmonize in wholeness and peacefulness.
We shoot ourselves in the foot when we say that we operate (or exist as) within a "nervous system".
It has been a long process for this body, about 10 years. A new awakening calm is a calm always herenow. The nervous chaos was never here, never now, always regretful of past and planning out more chaos in the future. The ego = drama in time.
Awakening can be a torturous process. A Zen saying (I think) is to "die before we die". The peacefulness within is from a dead past ego self, a death in the body. How nice it is!
Deeply held and suppressed experiences had to invariably come to the surface of consciousness. Over time, the individual consciousness was seen as the false source of this unhappiness and tortured thoughts.
This brain calming is the central process of awakening in the nervous system. It's vital to know that you are not alone in this. It is happening globally. Hell melts into the past. Be herenow.
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